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I want to share something with you and testify that the lord our God Jesus Christ saves, heals and redeems. Truly, as it was in the past it is now in the present and shall be in the future. His reign is forever and His name be praised for endless ages. Alleluia.

I was dressed for work on Saturday morning. I was feeling glad because the pants which I wore earlier was tight and now it's loose. I told myself 'I've lost weight, that's good." then the room door opened and in came my mum.

When she had seen me in my pants she commented that it was small and I looked fat in it.
I replied that I liked it and it was snug, which was most important, because I was the one wearing it. Then she persisted. I persisted too. Then she said the reason why I couldn't succeed was because I failed and didn't want to listen to people's advice. I thought to myself, I liked my dressing and it wasn't inappropriate so there. I kept to myself. I had felt a feeling of anguish and sadness. She felt that I wasn't going to succeed in anything.

When I had arrived at my workplace, I was met by the early birds of the day, students came in and I prepared for the lessons. My colleague came in and I shared with her what happened a while back. Then she asked me if I wanted to go somewhere to have some air or to cry. I said I wanted to but I couldn't as the flow of the weekend students who were coming for lessons were heavy. What if I left and she came in to find my colleague by herself? I told myself to surrender it to the Lord Jesus. After an hour or so I felt indigestion. I wondered if it was the food I had for breakfast. I decided to get some ENO salt. After having a cup of water with ENO, I felt like half of the discomfort disappeared. However, another hour or so later, I had to feeling to go to the toilet again. I threw up and I thought it could've been something I had eaten.

as the toilet was outside of the center, on the way back, I saw another colleague and spoke to him. Then he said based on the incident which took place in the morning that I was experiencing conversion.

I asked him why. He said I felt like that because it's a psychological effect. My ego was threatened and since I had not responded emotionally, the reaction came out physically. I learnt that within ourselves there are three kinds of ego, based on Sigmund Freud's study. There is Id, Ego and Superego. According to his findings, the ID seeks carnal desires and is impulsive. It avoids pains and seeks only pleasure. and....

Initially the ego is 'that part of the id which has been modified by the direct influence of the external world' (Freud 1923).

The ego develops in order to mediate between the unrealistic id and the external real world. It is the decision making component of personality. Ideally the ego works by reason whereas the id is chaotic and totally unreasonable.

The ego operates according to the reality principle, working out realistic ways of satisfying the id’s demands, often compromising or postponing satisfaction to avoid negative consequences of society. The ego considers social realities and norms, etiquette and rules in deciding how to behave. ( www.simplypsychology.org/psych…

The superego is a product influenced by society and family background. The superego's role is to keep Id in check and is like the Holy Spirit who helps us to avoid sinful things like immoral acts and deviating from what is pleasing before God and His Holy words.

The superego consists of two systems: The conscience and the ideal self. The conscience can punish the ego through causing feelings of guilt. For example, if the ego gives in to the id's demands, the superego may make the person feel bad through guilt.

The ideal self (or ego-ideal) is an imaginary picture of how you ought to be, and represents career aspirations, how to treat other people, and how to behave as a member of society.( www.simplypsychology.org/psych…

I had taken a pile of newspaper articles for a student to take as a model to writing. When most of the students had left,I took the pile of newspapers back and arranged them neatly before placing it back. When I did I came across a verse by Mark Twain, "To succeed in life you need two things; ignorance and confidence" and to me that felt like Jesus telling me that I must believe in Him and ignore the lies I hear.

I think all three parts of my ego were struggling. I believe so anyway. On the way back I resolute to get medicine for my discomfort. The travel back from work in the car with my earthly mum was painful. She kept poking to ask me what was wrong and I was stubbornly insisting that she mind her business. I was angry at her because of what happened that morning. On the way back although I had bought food, I didn't have the appetite to eat.. Then I decided to sleep after taking a pill which I had from a previous discomfort.

As I reflected upon my discomfort, I recalled the reason why I had the pills for vomiting/food poisoning because my foster dad had been cruel on me verbally. THIS time the same effect took place when my earthly mum had commented cruelly that I would fail because I swam against the tide.

I had fallen asleep, when she had come up to tell me we're going for a wedding I was still feeling kind of groggy. She picked up the pills which I had taken and then yelled at me for not telling her I wasn't feeling well.
I said I was okay and I said I wished she wouldn't treat me like a child. Then she said I WAS a child and that I was childish. I said I wish she would let go of the 'rope' which she was holding onto and let me grow. Then she went on about how I don't return her love and how much she sacrificed for me and how she didn't get married for my sake.

Then on the way to the wedding I thought about talking to a friend. As I sat in the car, my dad and earthly mum commented on the way I dressed and the bag I was carrying. I thought to myself that why should I come in pretense? Actually, It was true that I could've dressed better but I was wearing jeans and a polo shirt. Anyway, the couple who were wed weren't really strangers. Only the bride side. I knew the groom's family as they were my grandaunt and uncle.

I spoke to a friend whom I confided to most of the time. Even at the time I still felt discomfort. I thought about suicide but that of course wouldn't have solved anything. My friend had comforted me and said he would pray for me and that was that. I had heeded his advice of going back to the party and sat down for the dinner. I drank some tea which made me feel better. As the dinner was served a slide of the groom and bride's childhood life was shown. Immediately I felt like I was going to cry. I decided to go to the toilet to have a good cry. When I was in the toilet, which was REALLY clean....I felt the need to talk to someone and I did. When I spoke to her I started crying, as I continued to talk to her I cried even harder. Then she prayed for me on the phone. The longer she prayed,the calmer I felt and I stopped crying hard. Then something miraculous happened;

The stomach discomfort and the feeling of indigestion DISAPPEARED. I felt hungry again. Jesus HEALED me. Alleluia. When I returned to the dinner table. My foster parents asked;

"What happened? Are you alright? Hey, a while back you looked sleepy and tired and now you look much more alive..."

I said yeah...I felt much better.

....now I feel hungry...

Then she said 'I tried to contact the person in charge of the reading coz you said you weren't feeling well just now. I tried calling all my church friends who may know her but I couldn't! Huh, maybe God wants you to read tomorrow...'

Praise God. He heals. I had attended the wedding initially because I didn't want to stay in the house sick, because I wanted to go to mass (today) on Sunday so I forced myself to put a brave front. This reminded me of the woman who was subjected to bleeding all her life in LUKE 8:40-47

As Jesus was on His way, the crowds almost crushed Him. And a woman was there who had been subject to bleeding for twelve years, but no one could heal her. She came up behind Him and touched the edge of His cloak, and immediately her bleeding stopped.

“Who touched Me?” Jesus asked.

When they all denied it, Peter said, “Master, the people are crowding and pressing against You.”

 

But Jesus said, “Someone touched me, I know that power has gone out from Me.”

 

Then the woman , seeing that she could not go unnoticed, came trembling and fell at His feet. In the presence of all the people, she told why she had touched Him and how she had been instantly healed. Then He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace.

and thus is the goodness of the Lord. What little faith I had and though little faith I had, the desire to have Him as healing, had saved me. It is because God loves me and that I am His child, that I am made sound. So believe, that He shall heal you and you are in His fold. He shall never forsake you.

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cloverholly Featured By Owner 1 hour ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Hi there! Thanks for favouriting (:
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Josh592 Featured By Owner 4 days ago   Writer
CEREAL!!!!!!!

What's up?!

I've missed you!
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cereal-in-a-bowl Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Hobbyist Writer
Lotsa stuff....I've been excited about college and looking for a new job :).
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Josh592 Featured By Owner 2 days ago   Writer
sweet.
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cereal-in-a-bowl Featured By Owner 13 hours ago  Hobbyist Writer
Like honey! :D Hope you're doing well too!~
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DBEEERS Featured By Owner 4 days ago
Thank you for adding " Magnificat" to your favorites, I greatly appreciate it. God Bless
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cereal-in-a-bowl Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Hobbyist Writer
My pleasure...it's awesome!
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DBEEERS Featured By Owner 4 days ago
:) (Smile) 
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Thanks for +fav-ing my stamp! It means a lot to have so many people favorite it, especially considering the backlash of hatred I've been getting from the anti-Christian community for making it. fiskefyren has made a stamp with the sole purpose of making fun of mine (he repeats the same tired old myth that I'd already debunked as if you can make a lie true if you repeat it enough times.) People are telling me that I'm wrong because "fiskefyren says so." I'm not sure whether to laugh or feel sorry for them.
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cereal-in-a-bowl Featured By Owner Edited 6 days ago  Hobbyist Writer
Things like that happen. I've learned that people say hurtful things because they've been hurt and they're going through some psychological and emotional trials. Sometimes people admit it sometimes they don't Sometimes they're put out because of the people they've been with. A lot of people from the church leave it not because of the church herself but because of the parishioners and sadly sometimes even the clergy and religious. In the end we are all human and we need to forgive others and seek forgiveness from them. We also need to forgive ourselves. Sometimes I think, people end up being separated from God not because they weren't forgiven by others but because they've not forgiven themselves. It's one of the most challenging things in life. We may never understand why people do the things they do, but I've learned that there's always a reason why people do things.

Take for example an experience I had at least 4 years ago, the place I was working in got robbed and I was the one whom the robber pointed the knife at. He wasn't hostile but he was looking for money. He told us that he and his accomplice was going to take all the money we had but none of us would be hurt if we co-operated.  True to his word, as we complied he just left us at the back of the office and told us to stay there for 5 minutes and then he told us that we could get out. He took our mobile phones and our money, but he didn't like snatch the wallet. He just told us to take out all our money and hand it to him.

At first I thought I'd be angry at him, but a voice inside of me said, "Don't be angry with him, instead be sad because he feels so lost. That's why he's doing this. He has lost all hope and he hasn't got anyone to help him. He's finding a way to fill in that empty void inside of him. And this is just one way. Instead now pray for him. Be glad and rejoice for you have found a treasure which he shall never steal; God and His Heavenly promise for you.He lost God. Maybe one day he will find God again and then he will go back to the right path."

As humans we find it so easy to point a finger at people when we should be pointing it at ourselves. Thieves, robbers, rapists, terrorists and such do not come out of thin air. They're also human. They were once hopeful and joyful. Their actions are justified nor are they excusable BUT this is because we, society fail to emphatise with them when they are hurting. We do not see the Lazarus who are calling out to us outside of our 'houses'.  Until we do, until we see these people not as criminals but as hurt individuals going astray from the path God has set them, we will never be able to make the world a better place, we will not be able to see as Christ sees each individual, precious and worthy of His love, not because we earn it but because He is merciful, gracious and is love manifested in the form of flesh.

We must realize that everyone is here for a purpose and that we need to look out for each other. Let us not point at our neighbour's sawdust but at our own plank.  We cannot save the entire world. But as Mother Teresa said, let's start with one person and at time and that is enough.  
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