I attended Saturday evening mass. All that was on my mind was my assignments and how I was going to print them out. I was also filled with worry because I wanted to get a Distinction for the course. As soon as I received communion, I went back to the pew and knelt down to pray. I told God about what was in my heart, about how I was worrying...in addition to the pain which I feel on my left arm. Whenever my left arm hurts it reaches all the way to my chest. I am worried. I thought about me diagnosed with something serious and dying. I also remember telling this to my counselor and he said "Nah, don't worry, you're not going to die that
easily..." and that was his way of telling me I was in God's good hands.
anyway...as I was praying, the choir was singing a hymn...and it went like..."Don't be afraid for I go before you always...you shall triumph..."
and this became louder as I prayed.
Now, today, I attended an RCIA gathering (I am from RCIA 18
) RCIA is Rites of Christian Initiation of Adults, a course for non-Catholics who WANT to be Catholics. They spend a year learning about the Catholic Church and ultimately about Jesus Christ ans His teachings. I was baptised in 2011 I think....
Anyway, I got to church early and had the luxury of meeting with my counselor *dies of joy*. When I talked to him about the assignments and about asking a church friend directions to the nearest photocopying service near the church area, he said;
"Hey, why don't you drop by church earlier
and you could print it in church..." and then I was like really? He said; "How many sheets of paper?"
I said I wasn't sure..."Maybe 50 pages..."
and he nodded and said "Okay..."
and that lifted a whole weight off my chest. I was thinking about hunting for photocopying stations around the college area on Wednesday...and if all else failed I would've gotten to the city because I knew places where they provided photocopying services.
This is testimony that God is very good and that His words are good. He hears you. So ...if you call out to Him...look for Him with all your heart...make no mistake...you SHALL find Him.
Thank You, Lord Jesus...
I believe with all of my heart that He speaks to us and listen to us. Are we going to surrender our all to speak and listen to Him? It's in total surrender and silence that we hear Him. This is something I have to learn over and over...
Learning from the sun and clouds...(Proverbs 16:3)My thoughts are scattered like the clouds
white tufts of fluff hovering all about
they look like sheep suspended in mid air
like hung clean white underwear....
if you stare long enough you could hear them bleat
as they roam about the kingdom right up there
I wondered if clouds had feelings
or if they had brains at all
however if they did...would it sustain in their lightweight vessels?
I suppose they would tumble right out
with their brains sustained with light weight strings
or perhaps they had brains in form of water vapor...
which could appear and vanish as they desire...
and still be able to operate quite normally...
the balsamic wind of noon
came like a choir of a glorious psalm
which left as quickly as it came
as I stood amidst of some old and gangly gossiping trees
they share some kind of cryptic news
which only they could understand
as I gaze upon the wonder
which only God Almighty could conjure
Ah, praise His most holy name
for unto Yahweh God Sabaoth be praise and glor