Deviation Actions
After much thought I realized how foolish I was. Wisdom was taking me on another journey and I had allowed myself to drag my feet as she led me. Ahh...the fool that I am. Then again this helped me to reflect on what needs to be improved and that God is not finished with me yet. I am WORK in progress.
*shamed*
Anyway...the day's event reminded me of a verse from the Book of Sirach 4:11-19
"Wisdom takes care of those who look for her; she raises them to greatness. Loving her is loving life itself; rising early to look for her is pure joy. Anyone who obtains Wisdom will be greatly honored. Wherever he goes, the Lord will bless him. Wisdom's servants are the servants of the Holy One, and the Lord loves everyone who loves her. Those who obey her will give sound judgments;[a] those who pay attention to her have true security. Put your trust in Wisdom, and you will possess her and pass her on to your descendants. At first, Wisdom will lead you along difficult paths. She will make you so afraid that you will think you cannot go on. The discipline she demands will be tormenting, and she will put you to the test with her requirements until she trusts you[b] completely. Then she will come to you with no delay, reveal her secrets to you, and make you happy. But if you go astray, she will abandon you and let you go to your own ruin."
and Sirach 4:20-28
"Take advantage of opportunities, but guard yourself against evil. Don't underrate yourself. Humility deserves honor and respect, but a low opinion of yourself leads to sin. Do not let others have their way at your expense; do not bring on your own ruin by giving up your rights.Never hesitate to speak out when the occasion calls for it. Don't hide your wisdom.Your wisdom and education can be known only by what you say. Do not, however, go against the truth, and remember that you do not know everything. Don't be ashamed to confess your sins; there's no point in trying to stop a river from flowing. Don't allow yourself to be dominated by someone who is stupid or show partiality to influential people. Stand up for what is right, even if it costs you your life; the Lord God will be fighting on your side."
I feel so ashamed really. But this also comforts me in a way.
I am ashamed because I allowed myself to be demotivated by people when I should've trusted God and allowed constructive criticism prune me. For another I had allowed my lack of self confidence which I had thought was gone...unfortunately I realised also that like cancer or similar illness can come and go at any time. It is when we are prepared that we know what to do.
I had allowed people at present...current tribulation distract me...
Ahh...thus wisdom teaches those whom God has led to her. Those who seek to be taught shall face trials and sufferings which can only cause them to weep and gnash their teeth. As said in the preceding verses, if one continues to follow wisdom and endure it all, wisdom shall then explain why she had led him or her to such pains.
I had books on my desk and did not bother using them. I had frozen and allowed myself to be momentarily blank all because I did not revise and practice the lessons and review the books which was related to English Language Grammar
I am currently pledging to do at least 2 pages a day...which on a weekend 4 pages. 2 in the morning and 2 in the evening...God willing.
I also learnt that I should not allow people to bring me down. I have come this far. I should rejoice in the fact that I am HERE.
Yet I must also be aware whilst I have reached HERE. I have many more miles to go.
Humility and wisdom come hand in hand. Alongside it The Lord is present.
He does not shame nor does He bring down the ones Whom He has called. Instead He would glorify in His creation and make nations from His chosen. He would make them triumph if he would allow the Lord Yahweh God of Hosts to build upon them His Holy Temple. To pray for humility, to pray to remain steadfast is what we pray, that in such would sustain us and perhaps in due time in His good grace in our spirits form roots in our soul.
So I am relearning to value myself...and the person God has made me to be. I think I forget that a LOT.
Well...I am learning to pick myself up and Jesus is there to hold me up. Psalm 37:24
We fall for many reasons. Sometimes due to pride, ambition and distractions. But if we turn to God seek His grace, mercy and loving guidance, we shall (in contrite heart) obtain forgiveness and then be lifted up for in Jesus we shall not fall but stand firm, if we allow Him to make a home in us. If we make our house on Jesus our ROCK, nothing on earth or the next can destroy our house because JESUS shall sustain us and deliver us from calamity.
Yeah..I pray for persistence and consistency. I pray for humility, wisdom and confidence. Amen.
I hope this encourages you, who are going through similar hardships or struggles. You are more than a conqueror in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:37)
and if we have God with us who can be against us? (Romans 8:31)
Therefore fix our eyes upon Jesus, Who is the author of the Word. (Hebrews 12:2)
